Barry88

It’s Tuesday and it has been a good day so far.  I got a great workout in this afternoon and plan on adding a second cardio tonight.  I was looking my closet and found an old pair of Jeans.  I had finally broken down and got some size 40’s.  I just couldn’t squeeze into the 38’s anymore.  That day was aweful!!  Anyways, I held up those 40’s today and OMG!!!!  They are huge!!  I even had a hard time fitting into those @ the time.  Now My 38’s are still uncomfortable, but for a different reason.  I am swimming in them.  Too big!!  It’s 36’s now soon to be 34’s I hope.  I need to donate my old clothes because I do not want them around anymore.  I am never going back to that place again!!

Well it’s Monday again and the start of a new week.  I have been bouncing back inbetween a few pounds every week.  This week it is time to smash through and hit my mini goal of 215.  That would be 40 lbs gone which would be great.  kathy is travelling Tuesday through Thursday this week so I have to be sure to hit the elliptical for an extra workout after the kids go to bed instead of hitting the fridge.  Well baby is crying and needs a nap.  Gotta get the little ones down for a nap and workout!

Well yesterday I finally managed to put the scale away until my weigh-in on Sunday.  I know good things  will happen if I eat right and exercise and stop obsessing about the scale.  This week has been good so far with the exception of the 15 min previously mentioned in my last blog.  I put the candy in the cabinet above the fridge.  Out of sight out of mind.  I don’t even want it anymore.

I am ready to continue this journey that started so well in April and stalled out over the summer.  My original goal was to be @ my goal weight by Jan 1, but now I have revised it to be 50 lbs gone.  That is a reasonable goal and I will get there.  I am also going to revise my mini goals to be in 5 lb increments to be reached and new mini goals set.

Well, it’s 2:21 am and I can’t get back to sleep.  The baby got up for her nightly bottle and I am dreading the scale in the morning.  I stayed on plan all day long until the last 15 min of the day.  Halloween candy!!!  One piece turns into a 15 min binge.  I wish I could throw it all away, but that’s not fair to the kids.  Why do I choose to throw away an entire day of hard work.  Does part of me not want to succeed???  I know @ that moment that I am going to be mad in the morning (or 2am in this case), yet I still do it?  Why?????  I wish I knew.  This is how the last few weeks have gone.  Great 1st 4 days of the week and I throw it away in an instant.  Is it worth it??  NO, yet I still do it.  Maybe being honest to myself and writing this down will let me get back to sleep and stop this behavior in the future.  I need to update my weight tracker now to show the gain over the last 3 weeks and acknowledge that it happened and move on!I need to learn how to stop this before it is too late the next time.  Any suggestions would be welcome.  Well back to bed and hopefully back to sleep!!  Well, baby is crying again…  So much for that!!

Well, I have been trying to change my profile for quite some time now and with the help of Dr Marc it was determined that there is some bug that has made it so my old profile was locked and could not be changed.  .  I decided to delete my old profile and start over.  Unfortunately in doing that, I lost all of my buddies and have to get everyone added back to my new profile and I lost all of my blogs.  So, I quess this is a new start for me.  To all of my buddies out there please take a second and add me back and anyone else reading this that wants to buddy up,  just send me a request.

I have kind of been lazy over the summer I must admit.  It will be hard to reach my goal weight by Dec 31, like I originnaly planned, but that is still my goal.  I am doing well this week.  My wife is out of town until Thursday, and in the past this would do me in.  I would hit the fridge after the kids went to bed.  Last night I hit the Eliptical instead while watching Biggest Loser.  I must say that show is very inspirational for me.  I know I can do it and it reminds me of why this is so important.  I want to be around to see my kids grow up.  I want to be there for all the important things in their lives and to be around to enjoy their kids as well!  The time is now!!