Battling self sabotage…. and losing
Well, it’s 2:21 am and I can’t get back to sleep. The baby got up for her nightly bottle and I am dreading the scale in the morning. I stayed on plan all day long until the last 15 min of the day. Halloween candy!!! One piece turns into a 15 min binge. I wish I could throw it all away, but that’s not fair to the kids. Why do I choose to throw away an entire day of hard work. Does part of me not want to succeed??? I know @ that moment that I am going to be mad in the morning (or 2am in this case), yet I still do it? Why????? I wish I knew. This is how the last few weeks have gone. Great 1st 4 days of the week and I throw it away in an instant. Is it worth it?? NO, yet I still do it. Maybe being honest to myself and writing this down will let me get back to sleep and stop this behavior in the future. I need to update my weight tracker now to show the gain over the last 3 weeks and acknowledge that it happened and move on!I need to learn how to stop this before it is too late the next time. Any suggestions would be welcome. Well back to bed and hopefully back to sleep!! Well, baby is crying again… So much for that!!
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Sounds like a rough night Barry. We all do this to ourselves from time to time. It is hard to stop. You just have to get back in the right frame of mind to continue losing weight. Just get mad and ask yourself how bad you want to reach your goals. I have been struggling with the very same thing lately. You want to keep losing weight right? I know you do so just keep working on it. Put the candy in a spot where you don’t have to see it all the time. Hope you were able to get some rest.
I have done that before. Done great during the day and blew it right before bed. I don’t know how old your children are but have them or your wife hide the candy from you. You can’t eat it if you don’t know where it is. Good luck!!!
In a way, I think we get scared when we are doing it right. I know I do at least. I have gotten so close to the 200 lb mark and sabatoged myself for whatever “reason”. I personally think I get scared to live life as a thin person. I’m sure there are other things going on here too. Sounds like you are more than likely stressed with a new baby in the house. Those middle of the night feedings are a bear. Tired and cranky and of course up all alone. It is easy to give in in such a situation. Get something healthy to snack on when you get up with the baby. You obviously are on a trend, so make it a healthy choice instead of candy. Breastfeeding mothers learn really quick that the middle of the night feedings require a healthy snack!
Might make it a little bit more bearable too. Just a thought.
Well, you know how to have success at this, you just have to get angry and get back on track. And not angry that you are not doing well but angry that you are letting food or your craving for bad foods hold you back. Get angry, get organized, make yourself a contract for a week on how you are going to make change and then do it. Give it all you got. And since you are taking care of the kiddo’s, that can make it really difficult to stay on track because time can be an issue. But, do the best you can. Make a plan that you can keep. Just dive in there and show your body that your the boss! Good luck Barry!
As for the self sabbatoge, I’ve been there and done that! Come to think of it, I had a little binge myself today. Had a bad day with the kids and an argument with my hubby and just went straight for the food. I’ve not done that in a long time and it sickens me that I did it today. My problem is with that horrid Halloween candy as well. I feel the same way about not wanting to throw it away because it isn’t fair to the kids but really, do they need that junk either? I agree with WW, you just have to get back on track and stop letting the cravings win out! Or rather, WE have to stop letting cravings win out. We both know it’s not worth it in the end. All that hard work right down the tubes in a matter of a few minutes. We’re better than that! So, what do you do now? You’ve acknowledged your mistake. SO, move past it. You can’t go back and change it but you CAN stop it from happening again. I think you’ve been doing great. Just keep heading in the right direction and don’t look back…just frustrates you to do that anyway and may actually cause you to trip and fall!
Best wishes to you Barry. I know you can do it!!